sacred and sassy find their voice

 I’m not interested in transcending.
What I want to know is how do I be a human being having a spiritual experience AND a spiritual being having a human experience? There is a cosmic dance going on between spirit and matter and I want to learn the steps!

I did this gorgeous guided visualization with Laura Hollick (one of my heroes) a couple of years ago. We connected with our Soulstars (the original star home of each of our souls), embodied our higher self energy, and then shot out across the cosmos toward the earth.
...... pulled like a lover, with magnetic attraction, dripping with desire, like you HAVE to go there! You’re called, you want to, it’s your purpose, your destiny.....Laura said. This energy went deep into the core of the earth, the Earthstar. Planting the seeds of our divine dreams, of their full expression, the knowing and wisdom of who we really are. She called on us to feel our spirits in earthly form, to feel the support of the earth as we anchored in our spirit vibration, to know that it CALLED us to come just as much as we wanted to come....... the earth WANTS receive your magnificence. FEEL it just sucking it in with pure delight! Feel it wrap itself around that seed and feel the seed in your body. Feel it being nourished, starting to grow......

Forget tango. THIS is the dance I want to learn!
Seriously, what if that were the relationship between spirit and matter, rather than matter being something we had to overcome, to transcend, in order to become enlightened. A divine love affair between the two, the union of which was enlightenment.

There is so much to this shift from either/or to both/and that I have typically become paralyzed by the sheer volume of my thoughts before I could ever write a single word. But my friends here, Sacred and Sassy, seem to have something to say and the pressure they are exerting from the inside has become greater than the other pressure I feel around my writing needing to be good, or have any particular value. As Anais Nin says,

......and the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.

So let me begin by introducing you to them.

Who is this head and what’s her story?
Some of you (probably most of you who are reading this) know I got in the car last October and drove cross country to my beloved California. I'd been looking for Sacred for a while and, of course, found him* the week before I left. After a minor struggle - you just know when you've found what you were looking for -  I decided to get him and bring him with me as my travel companion. Sassy, who was a gift from the talented and generous Tyler Gillen and had been with me for several months (patiently waiting for the rest of her body and teaching me some serious attitude), had NO intention of staying behind. Somehow she made it perfectly clear - in the midst of my sorting through almost 30 years of stuff to decide what was essential to take - that she was essential.

Originally, I thought she could sit up front with me and deter those bad people I might run into, once I left my little Vermont bubble, from breaking into my car. But she wasn’t tall enough (you know, not having a body and all)  so I relegated her to the back of the car where she sentried all my belongings. I decided she would be even more effective back there with the startle factor and her rather standoff-ish expression. Meanwhile Sacred got the passenger seat, where he emanated calm and presence as I negotiated I-80 and the tractor trailers.

I posted my journey on FB and the questions about them started; but I really began paying attention to these 2 as I saw how different their experience of the trip was. Sacred basically had the cush - a whole seat to himself, the most spacious area of the car (including mine). Nothing ruffled him - fortunately, because that was his role - to be an anchor of serenity. Sassy, on the other hand, kept falling between the containers and out of the back of the car every time I opened the hatch. The first time that happened, I had just pulled into a rest area that said Welcome to Indiana.I had no idea where I was. I opened the hatch, and a head fell out onto her face just as some man was walking by.  I felt like I'd been caught in a crime. This continued to happen, again and again, no matter how or where I situated her, until I knew it had to mean something - more on that later but it definitely caught my attention and brought the two of them into focus as having a more important role on my journey than the simply protective companions of a slightly eccentric woman exploring what David Whyte means when he says:
....You must learn one thing. The world was made to be free in......

I clearly felt their protective power grow as the trip progressed. I assigned that power to them but they also took it on. I knew they had become my mascots and the connection began to grow between them and me, who I am and what I'm most interested in. Now I have invited them to become my guides as I try to put into words this question of what it means to be spiritual and human, as well as everything else I have been thinking about for a while.:-)

Dancing,

S + S

* I wasn't sure about Sacred's gender, and I'm still not. I actually thought he was a she on the trip but he feels more gender neutral than anything. I will continue to use he for now because it feels like it might be useful.